Days go by.
Hard days, harder nights. Small little farm emergencies. The first bird songs of spring. Conversations full of tension. Teaching music to students who don't listen. Unbelievable cute baby goats. Cluttered house and no one to clean it but yours truly. Horse mane blowing in the breeze. What's for dinner? Days full yet empty. Country music. Tools and appliances that always seem to break. Surprise plans to a place that makes me happy. Horsey birthday cupcakes. Deceptively sunny days that are bitter cold. Sister time. Laughing at my dog's crazy antics. People that annoy me. People I miss. Stupid people. People I know I love but wish I was far away from. Smiling but hurting people.
This is my life. And I fight the feeling everyday that I'm running in place, going nowhere. Wondering about my future. What God wants of me. Taking what I KNOW God wants of me and applying it to my small existence. Fighting the urge to be invisible and hide away in the woods so no one will ever find me again.
But like a friend of mine says "Trials and tribulations are like watching a drama, it looks bad but you know how it's gonna end."
For I reckon that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us. Romans 8:18
For as the sufferings of Christ abound in us, so our consolation also aboundeth by Christ. 2 Corinthians 1:5
But rejoice, inasmuch as ye are partakers of Christ's sufferings; that, when his glory shall be revealed, ye may be glad also with exceeding joy. 1 Peter 4:13
This is good stuff. I know how it's gonna end all right, rockin' awesome, that's how.
Victoria, I LOVED this post. I know that sounds strange but I think no matter where we are in life, there are times when we feel like we are running in place but going no where. BUT, I LOVE how the story ends too and your post and the verses reminded me of a day when that sunshine will represent nothing except warmth. What a day that will be!
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