Sunday, November 18, 2012

All I Need, He Provides

I'm back home! This time at J127 has been a life changing one.  It's always good to get some experience under your belt, but more than that I've learned some key things, things that will be changing how I live my life at home.  More info on that soon.  But for now I'm just home and I'm tempted to be a little sad about it, and I was.  No matter how many times Eddie tells us "We'll be FINE", it doesn't change the fact of how close we've grown as a group in the last 9 weeks.  You just can't help that sort of thing.
But like I said, I was tempted to be sad.  Every other time I've left home and then come back I wasn't prepared for the impact it has on me.  This time I have a peace.

 Therefore lift your drooping hands and strengthen your weak knees, and make straight paths for your feet, so that what is lame may not be put out of joint but rather be healed.  Hebrews 12:12-13

 This is another chapter, and as much I love the old chapter, I'm not in that one anymore.  I will not paint pictures of how it was, I refuse.  All I can do is to throw myself into this new chapter and make it as God glorifying as I can.  

I haven't even been home for 24 hours yet and everything is a bit strange, the floor, the air, everything, I woke up this morning and was like "Where the deuce am I?" because not only am I not at the Mission,, but I'm not back in my old room at home because we moved it.  

I'm staying in the Word so the growht I experienced while at J127 isn't stunted.  
God has used some of these songs to really touch my heart on a few things in this season:

Great is Thy faithfulness, morning by morning new mercies I see, all I have needed Thy hand hath provided, great is Thy faithfulness, Lord unto me.

Strength for today and bright hope for tomorrow, blessing all mine and ten thousand besides.  

You are the Voice of the Hope, the anchor of my soul, when there seems to be no way, You make it possible.  You are the Prince of Peace amidst adversity, my lips will shout for joy to You the Most High.

You are peace, You are peace when my fear is crippling, You are truth, You are truth even in my wanderings, You are joy, You are joy You're the reason that I sing, You are life, You are life in You death has lost it's sting.  

You make all things work together for my good.  (repeat until you feel like you really believe it)

I need a wrecking ball, slamming inside my heart, breaking me all apart, tearing the old away, killing the fear in me, til I can finally breathe, even if it hurts so bad that I can't even stand, take it all, let me fall into Your hands.

I've been painting pictures of Egypt, leaving out what it lacked, the future looks so hard and I want to go back, but the places that used to fit me can not hold the things I've learned, those roads were closed off to me while my back was turned. 

By the way, this is not one big song in case you didn't figure it out, it's bits and pieces from multiple songs.  ;)  Well, may you stay strong my fellow knights, for the King is on the throne and our battles are already won.  
 



 

1 comment:

  1. Wow, I didn't think of how odd it would be to try to comment on your blog... I'm so used to just talking to you.

    Anyway. Good post. :) I've been dealing with it almost the exact same way... I miss everyone and the Mission, but that chapter is over and I'm choosing to focus on the one that I'm in now. And I've been pretty successful so far. :D I'm once again bombarded with little people all day long... and I'm in D mode a lot more now, haha. :D

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